Waaah, the Zettai Kareshi jdrama is super awesome!

( spoilers? )

Now on to the muzzer™ rant (these are getting a little scarce these days, haha [/sarcasm])~
This morning while I was going to bed (this statement is ironic by itself) she randomly woke up and saw that I was still up and came in and started a whole speech about how I'm completely worthless and have developed an addiction to the computer (on which I have two comments: one, it's better than being addicted to alcohol or cigarettes, and two, it's not an addiction per se, because -and I have proved this during the past year- I can in fact live without a computer AND without an internet connection. if I take away her morning coffee she'll be dragging herself around all day. THAT's an addiction). True, I tend to stay up all night on the computer because I'm doing things online, things I don't even manage to finish, and most of the time I have at least five other things I need to do but never have time for. For me, for some of you and for most people on this site or deviantArt, these things are understandable. Perhaps my turning around of the biological clock would be frowned upon, but I'd get a sympathetic "I know what you mean". That means something to me. And I'm not about to go onto the cliche argument of how the generations now have a rift and there's no way my mother would understand something so ahead of her own time as livejournal, icons, Johnny's Entertainment or the crack found in Prince of Tennis and D-Boys, because let's face it, it's a fact. I will never expect her to understand this. However, I will not put up with derogatory characterisations and comparisons with my father (something she always does whenever I'm being lazy or bored and laying about), because it's my own kind of hobby and I feel like I'm making something, instead of just sitting there surfing. Essentially it is just surfing, but it's somehow more than that. It's hard to explain.

If you understand, thank you. If you don't, please don't start with muzzer-like comments because frankly, I've had enough. Don't go on about how "she's right, you know", because I do know, and I am trying to turn the clock around, and I don't need anyone to tell me that. I hate it when people tell me what to do or not do.


Johnny's rambles:

1. Something I've wanted to point out since I first saw the Keep the Faith PV (which by the way, KICKS ASS): Don't Kame and Jin (especially Jin though) look very tired? Jin has bags under his eyes that are super evident, and Kame as well though his are not so puffy. Also Jin's solo cam parts look like he's just doing this to get it over with, with a few usual grimaces and movements which guarantee the kakoi effect. Near the end he looks so exhausted, like he's keeping himself awake. *sigh* Those two should stop staying up late doing naughty things, especially on work nights. There's weekends for that, boys.
2. Is Kanjani8's Purin a song about what I think it is? Actual pudding?!?! I didn't like them much before but THIS SONG MAKES UP FOR EVERYTHING I SWEAR. XDDDDD *sings along* "Purin, purin, daisuki sa purin~~" *g*
3. I had a dream last night and it involved me and Ikuta Toma in uh, embarrassing scenes. *blush* I didn't know I liked him so much, lol. (There was also Oguri Shun, with very fuzzy hair and a weird hair accessory on his head. Later on for some reason it got curly. My subconscious is confused about Oguri Shun's hair, apparently. For good reason too, but that's another story.)

Moodkillers ought to die. I was in a perfect mood yesterday and it just had to be thrown off by the muzzer... Geez, can't a person have fun already? I know she likes to torture people mentally and everything, but enough is enough!!

Aaanyway. I don't want to write about that now. Not that my mood is any better, but I just don't feel up to it. It's same old shit anyway.

Instead, let me say how awesome Kurosagi is!! :DDD It's more awesome than I expected it to be! Watched 4 episodes already, and if it wasn't this late I wouldn't stop... I'm starting to like Yamapi a lot. He was great in Nobuta as well, and I can see bits of Akira in his Kurosagi acting, which makes me giggle. Bang is totally Kon but darker. Haha.

Umm, I'm sorry if my latest entries don't make much sense. I'm aware of that. But I'd have to type a lot and I'll have to feel like it in order to do so. There's a lot of hard stuff too that I just can't write about yet, or things that I can talk about but not write about... A voice post would be most handy now but the mic thingy I have doesn't work... I'll take it to be replaced Monday and then maybe you'll all understand what the hell I'm talking about most of the time.

私は残念偽りなくである! :(
( => I'm truly sorry!!)

In any case, I should really go to sleep now.
{I need to stop doing this, it's killing me. I wake up so late in the afternoon and get to do one thing and then I end up pulling all-nighters again and waking up the next afternoon. I like it when I wake up in the morning and do a lot of stuff... but I can't bring myself to wake up early for some reason. I have to try though. I really hate this reversed pattern, it makes me feel like a vampire. D:< }

PS: Seto moodtheme progress - 52%!! :D

THIS. IS. EIJI. No kidding! Toothpaste love~~!!! :D
I love this boy. I love this boy so much. ^_^

I'm making a Seto moodtheme. I've been thinking about it since I started stalking his blog and noticed how he makes all these cute faces, that I can totally make a moodtheme out of the blog photos he posts. So yay for expressive cuteness on this LJ as well ^^

Uhm, I had a whole bunch of unhappy evil muzzer (TM) stuff to rant about but I've had a nice all-nighter talking to funny people so I feel a lot better ^^ So no rant for now.

Also, Gokusen II rocks. I don't care how some people find it to be identical to season I, it totally is NOT. It's so different and more challenging and interesting and... 2 words: Akanishi Jin. That says it all. :D

I need a Jin icon. *ponders*
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RL stuff: My sister left for a 5 day trip with her school!! I'll miss you Bututuuuuu!! ♥♥♥

FIVE THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL LOUSY:

1. I sent my mom to the bookstore to get me a pen identical to my favourite one that I use to write exams with and stuff, and not only she didn't manage to get me a new one, she even lost the original one. I have other pens but I liked that one so much, it was thick and it felt comfortable in my hand, and now I either have to use one of the others or go downtown in the morning before my exam and try to find the one I want.
   
   For some reason, this makes me feel very, very lousy. Like, I want to cry because I lost a friggin' pen. It's not even my notebook or something, it's a PEN. And I have other pens. But it makes me feel so miserable. And I just feel lousy because I haven't been productive today, my notes look weird because I switched pens halfway through because SHE LOST MY PEN, and tomorrow I have a Chemistry exam.
   
   :(
   
   Why do I feel like this?? :/
   
2. Math was mediocre. The papers were difficult, and as always I lost the race against the clock. One and a half hours is NOT enough for that insanely huge test. IBO, dienowplzkthxbai.
   
3. I keep postponing the London post. I'll end up making a little entry or something, meh. The details are starting to feel insignificant somehow, even though they probably aren't. I should probably do this when I'm in a good mood. Now is not the time.
   
   
4. I miss everyone. I want to go out on Friday night with everyone, Aggelos will be in town too. Mt, pretty please come? :)
   I NEED TO GO OUT OMG. And I need to talk to some people, I feel so stranded.
   
   
5. Did I mention how I am totally going to fail tomorrow? :(
   And Friday, because it's all memorisation and I suck at memorising boring things. I'll try to cheat somehow (!), I don't know. Chemistry options are evil. Chemistry is evil. The IB is evil. EVILNESS GALORE OMG.
   

FIVE THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL A LITTLE HAPPY:

1. I am eternally debted to ib_rangerz for the 4-hour chemistry lesson yesterday. *hugs* Thank you so much!!! :D You're the best! ^_^ Really, it's so cool to have a science whiz for a friend. :) Plus we had so much fun, and I understood Chemistry WTF?!
   
   Funny quote from yesterday.
   Librarian: "So you're getting help from you're friend the mathematician, huh?"
   Me: "He's a physicist actually..."      Alex: "Physicist..."
   We pwn at thinking the same things, lol. :D
   
   
2. I'm probably getting a haircut on Friday... I was thinking of letting my hair grow but I thought about it again and I figured, naaaaah. Short hair is much better for the summer. So yay at last a haircut, it's starting to look really awful~
   
   
3. Eurovision semi-final tomorrow!! (Let's see how well I'll study Chemistry while that thing is on O_o) And then the final on Saturday! The Serbian song pwns. And there's so much rock this year, I'll be a happy fangirl. ^^
   
   
4. I'm probably seeing my friends on Friday! I must arrange it so that it's settled, because I'll probably die if I don't.
   
   
5. Um, 9 days till school's out forever? :D I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT FRIDAY ZOMGGG.

Oh, and Theo texted today and he said he was accepted to work at a hotel here in Thessaloniki for the summer (he's studying Hotel Management and things like that) so he'll be nearby all summer. That's a good thing, it would be a shame for him to be far away. ^^

That's all. Now excuse me while I go die in a box.

Ehm. I feel weird. Like, cranky weird.
It's NOT because of the breakup. I'd be feeling shitty even if I DID have a boyfriend right now.

It's school... it's bringing me down.
Man, I KNOW I only have like 40 days of school left minus the holidays and exams. I KNOW that it will be over before I even say Quidditch and yet... I feel lousy. I'm sitting here trying to do psychology homework... It's such a drag! I have two past paper questions to answer for tomorrow... And I also have some Math past papers to do for tomorrow, which I'm not sure I'll have the time to do. I'll try though. I'm starting to pay attention in Math and I'm getting better. :) But Psychology has always been a drag... >.<

My mom is in shock because of the 5/7 I got in my Greek exams, I explain to her that I totally misinterpreted that song/poem I analysed, and she throws the usual stupid question at me: why would you misinterpret it?

DO I LOOK LIKE I'M DOING IT ON PURPOSE?!?!
Geez!!! Woman, just STFU!

But I only have to get through this safely. I have to study --- *groan* I don't want to studyyy... :( --- and pass those fucking exams of doom and become a free woman! >_< Shit... I'm just so ready for it to be all over, you know?, but the moment's just not here yet. And I curse under my breath because like it or not, I still have to endure this crap about grades and "doing good in school" and stuff, and a whole bunch of "you-like-pointless-things" babbling... Well I'm sorry that anime, manga, books, movies and TV make me feel nice. I'm sorry I don't have an interest in, say, biopsychology or theoretical chemistry. I'm sorry I don't give a FUCK about those things that matter. :P

I have to do my homework.
HOMEWORK SHOULD GO DIE FOR GOOD. Urghhhhh.

Chemistry exam SUCKED majorly. But I didn't expect anything less. I found myself reading questions like "what is the enthalpy change in this reaction if this and that condition is at hand" and I was thinking I DON'T CARE WHAT THE ENTHALPY CHANGE IS!!! I don't care and I don't want to know. Keep the knowledge to yourselves. I'm absolutely fine with not knowing. Geez.
Math exam was... surprisingly easy. I finished too early, kept rethinking the exercises, working on them on my calc... It was awesome because I was all alone in a room, sitting behind a huge desk, very comfortably, and I felt like I had all the time in the world... I did first the ones I knew well, and the easy ones, and then I spent more time on the ones that needed some thought and work. I believe I did quite well. :D

Came home and expected to smoothly make my audition payment to Guildhall, but lo and behold, my mom had called my grandpa to go deposit some money to a bank, but he was ill and didn't make it in time (for the first time in, like, ever) and we were left with no alternatives. I called the people at Guildhall, asked them whether I could pay them on Monday. They said no. So I tried to find another card to pay with. We tried my grandpa's card, but it wouldn't go through. At this point I started to panic. So I called my dad in Wales. He wouldn't pick up. I left him a very urgent voicemail, and hung up. The last person to cross my mind was Amy--and bless her, she helped me out. *SQUISHES* I made the payment, calling the same woman at Guildhall for like the fourth time... *facepalm* Quite a way to make an entrance. Dammit mother, learn how to keep a fucking promise. Especially when my future depends on it. My dad called later, and asked me what the emergency was... I told him about the whole thing, and he said "why did you leave it for the last minute?" I just said "it wasn't my fault" and he understood. I know he's an ass and I know he's lied to the whole world about everything you could imagine, but at least he understood what I meant when I said that. Sure, my mom has managed to survive in a foreign country, make ends meet for her good-for-nothing husband and their two kids, and a whole bunch of other things. Yet she always manages to break promises, to not be there when I need her presence, to not have things ready on time. Always the same story. *sigh* I know life is a bitch but don't make a habit out of using the excuse...

Anyway. In the evening I went to Alice's place for the last fitting. The dress looks marvelous... ^^
The dress rehearsal was awesome!! It was the best ever! Except, we totally fucked up the Othello scene (which is a rap song, actually), and I felt it kinda drag out at points. Oh, and they missed the cue to put a song on, and I started singing it, and then they put the song on. WTF if you screwed up that's fine, let me fix the gap and it'll be okay. That's good that we fucked up though, means we won't fuck up tomorrow at the big premiere of d00m. >.>;;

TOMORROWWWWWW. Appointment at hair salon at 10am (and no, this was not tied to the last entry at all. :P)
Theatre workshop, 11:30am-2:30pm. Must come home quickly, have lunch, prepare for the performance at least psychologically. Perhaps rest a little? And then go to school at 7pm, get ready yaddayadda, and PERFORM OMG.

Psychology exam went okay-ish. (And to think I had prepared the questions from the night before. Sheesh.) My mother kept calling me on my cellphone, which was on vibrate and in my bag, thus away from me. It kept ringing and the supervisors were like, squirming in their seats but not saying anything. Thank God for that... *phew* I had told her I won't be done before 11:40, maybe later. Why was she calling anyway? >:(
Turns out, it was because my chemistry/math tutor was sick. Hence, no lesson.
Came home, had lunch, fell asleep at 2:30 and woke up at 7:30pm. *facepalm*

I have managed to do a review for Chemistry, but I still need to check out certain things I don't remember very well, and I'm too sleepy to do so.
I am almost positive that I will not be able to wake up earlier than 7 tomorrow morning, though I'll try.

Tomorrow is going to be BUSYYYY.
Chem exam in the morning, oh god.
Half an hour break, and then Math exam of d00m (ha, as if I'd get away with it, lol)
After that I must run home and call the dudes at the Registry at Guildhall, and pay my audition fee via my mom's debit card. I should have done that last week but she needs to put the money in first, and shit keeps getting in the way. ALWAYS. (Number 1 rule with my mom: she's unreliable as far as promises or obligations go, at least 85% of the time. Not good.)
Then I have to go to Alice's place for the final fitting of my costume, then go to the dress rehearsal at 7... I finish at 11. >_< Must call my grandpa and secure a ride home because it will be too late to catch a bus, seeing that I have to switch two buses to get home. *sigh*

evil muzzer threatens to kill me.
over and out.

Greek exam went ok. Analysed the lyrics of a greek song. How awesome is that? XD
That's that as far as good news goes. The bad ones now.

I feel DROWNED. Besides exams and performances and whatever, there's my mom who tries to control my life in order to put me back into some sort of discipline system, because all shards of discipline are gone from me, as most of you know already. She's not letting me go to band practice, even though Alice is practically pleading through text messages and is like, "there has to be a way!! I need you dude!" in a most desperate fashion but my mom says "there's nothing I can do to help her" WTF. I understand that I have to pull myself together but man, if I start skipping band practice sessions then I'm going to stop altogether. This can't go on. We must meet EVERY week or else we're doomed. And besides, I haven't seen Asteris in two weeks and I've missed him so much. I won't be able to go out with him because of the performances and all, and all I want is to SEE HIM goddammit. >___<

And then there's the other thing. She's determined to get me a teacher for private math/chemistry lessons. The guy is excellent, I've worked with him before. Only, before IB happened. Now I'm doing stuff in ENGLISH. I don't even know how certain things are called in Greek anymore, and I suppose that's the plan. I don't want to get confused with greek/english terms, because I'm done with that. I'm studying shit in English now, dammit. Quit shoving greek teachers in my face. >:(
I had planned a Chemistry lesson with ib_rangerz, who is a genius in all things science, for Thursday. And next thing I know my mom barges in my room and asks, "you'll be home by noon on Thursday, right?" I'm like, "why?" And she says "because I've arranged for a lesson with Mr.Dimitris."
WHAT.THE. FUCK.
So no lesson with Alex. Because the almighty muzzer said so.

I haven't called her that in months. But ze evil muzzer is back, I'm afraid. *sigh*

Have I mentioned how much I hate control freaks?
VERY, VERY MUCH. >_< diecontrolfreaksdie.



EDIT: She let me go to band practice because I was sulking like whoa. I wasn't sulking to make her let me, it came out naturally and then I was venting on LJ and she opens the door and says "will it brighten you up if you go?"
She can be nice sometimes. She felt bad that she made me sulk. Awww. :P

ONE: 
I can't believe I'm using Internet Explorer right now. To the Firefox-enlightened, this is unthinkable. But FF is either being a bitch and not loading Livejournal, or Livejournal is being a bitch and won't load on FF. Anyone else got this problem? It's driving me insane. And the weirdest thing is, it works on IE just fine. WTF, Firefox.

[edit] OMG IT WORKS!!! It's 3:10am and Livejournal works on Firefox. phew... THANK YOU, OH GOD OF TEH INTERNETS. [/edit]

TWO:
I stayed at the library after school both yesterday and today, from 3 o'clock until 5 when the library closed to finish my second draft of the Psychology Internal Assessment (aka experiment) introduction. It's the boring theory/references part. I have only 3 references, I hope she finds them enough. >_< It's definitely better than last time but I guess there's always room for improvement. I mean, with me and Psychology there always is.

THREE:
There's this girl at school who failed her exams so she has to retake the lessons she failed at if she wants to get a diploma. She failed Chemistry, Math and Theatre Arts. She's in three of my six classes, and she's freakin' awesome. She even watches Naruto and Fullmetal Alchemist. XD Not to mention the similar music tastes. :) And she loved my Seven Deadly Sins idea for my individual project in Theatre Arts. She wants to be Wrath. :D

FOUR:
When I got home I had "lunch" (it was 6pm... and since in Greece we don't eat dinner this early, it wasn't dinner either...) and then I went to get some ice cream for all of us because I felt like eating ice cream... and then I was drowsy so I went to sleep for an hour or something, get the sleepiness out of my system... I woke up at midnight. And now I have to go do those theatre arts journals because I have to turn them in tomorrow. >_<

FIVE: 
I can't think of a topic for my Math Project. Any ideas? It has to be something I can collect statistics on.
On the same track, I don't know what I want to do for rmy oratory (which is like an 8 minute speech I'll deliver in front of people at the forensics tournament in March)... Any catchy/raunchy/interesting ideas for this?? Something completely over the top that is nevertheless intriguing? Or something so obvious that you're sick of hearing about (I could turn that around and prove that it is not true)? :D

*questions self* Are there any forensics communities on LJ? That would be fun...

SIX (random stuff): 
-- I just decided to use Winamp instead of Windows Media player.Let's see where this takes us. *le sigh*
-- Did you know that "Kirikirimai" by Orange Range was in the Fantastic Four movie? I'm surprised to see this remix here in their discography... Orange Range is nice. XD
-- AMY!! I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH!! T____T I have to see you soon. *hugs*
-- I'm thinking of making a friends cut? Not because I don't like my flist (I love you all!!) but some people just never comment in my journal and there's no point. :P It's like, I want to get to know them and they don't even try. -_-
-- My dad is coming in like, 6 days. Which means NEW CELLPHONE AND MIC AND EARPHONES FOR TEH PC!! *dances* I've also kinda missed the guy. But my mom obsesses over him 24/7 so I'm sick of him while missing him, in a way. Not for some specific reason except I'M TIRED OF LISTENING TO MY MOM BITCH ABOUT HIM AND HIS FAMILY 365 DAYS A YEAR. Woman, get over yourself already. Geez. >_<
-- My CD player is being cranky these days. The "next song" button is apparently broken because I can push it all day and it still won't skip a song. I can only use the "previous song" button~ which means that sometimes I need to rewind from track 22 to get to track #2. What a biatch of a cd player. (Although for some strange reason, I see it as a guy...)

Anyway, got to go. Must write journaly stuff for last year's theatre arts class or I'll get my head chopped off.